Saturday, September 25, 2010

Can't take it back

The other day I said something that I have been pondering over and over in my mind and I can't take it back.

Have you ever been in a social situation where you feel out of place? I am in that position everyday at work. I am at the "bottom of the food chain" or at least pretty close to it as far as my position in this company.

My co-workers were discussing a topic that I find very entertaining. I spend a lot of my time doing just what they were talking about. Notice I don't even want to say it, but I will "Gambling". They were mostly making comments about people who do this, not quite in a negative way like you would suspect, but I felt I wanted to add my two cents to the conversation.

In Montana you are allowed to win a maximum jackpot of $800 on one win (excluding any Casino on an Indian Reservation). I have lived in Montana 7 years, but in the last year alone, I personally have hit 5 $800 jackpots. My secret, VISUALIZATION! The book "THE SECRET"!

I felt compelled to speak up. The first comment made was "where did you hear that Deepak Chopra?" (whom I admire dearly), and some of them just looked at me in awe. Then I said "no, THE SECRET". The conversation seemed to end there.

Considering I haven't told many people of my passions, I feel really uncomfortable about it. I have also learned you should keep your goals and intentions to yourself and not share them with others that don't have the same goals or intentions, but in this situation I was compelled.

I decided not to let it bother me. I like who I am, I just usually don’t share with them. So now I am unsure what they are thinking and since I can't take it back, I guess I will just accept that they finally know a little piece of me that they didn't know before.

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